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i've been living in silence these few days. my internet connection has been stopped due to my unpaid broadband bills. now that the internet thang is settled but still it disappoints me. though it sucks having slow connection, i'm thankful for at least i can surf the net to keep myself updated with facebook, tumblr, blog and the most important is to find those information i crucially need for my thesis. isn't that a redundant there? ah bialah. my english is bad i know. right now i'm just too lazy to think about study. homeworks. and THESIS. i've been thinking to further my masters but not immediately after finishing my degree. maybe after a few years of working. i planned lah.  mun dah polah tesis degree pun dah kedak tok. i wonder how my master would be. -_-'

ok, finish of mumbling about education thingy.

last nite, WE had a fight. maybe its not a fight. it was a heavy conversation about the relationship and so on. the ups and downs in the relationship is killing me. maybe him too. i know most of the quarreling starts from me. i'm the biggest problem here. its just my attitude. he's having his hard time. and i don't even understand. no,i do understand. but i'm just too ego to admit it. :( we discussed everything and he asked me not to cry and end what we have right now. take this as one way to fix the relationship. oh guys. no wonder talak dipegang oleh lelaki. girls get too emotional sometimes. like me. and after a few 2 to 3 pages of texts, we ended up smiling and text normal things. i'm thankful for that. and i promise to reduce my ego. be mature and more understanding. i hope we can make it through thick and thin. :)

p/s: i may look mature but looking mature is not enough to handle life. painful life.